2007-201(?)

kay now where should i start ? bottom line , i hate my mum , A LOT . i know ive always talk , complain about her & vent my feelings here . maybe people might think im sucha disgrateful person for saying such things to my own mum . but , the thing is , they dont know . THEY DONT KNOW . you guys dont know a single thing

my mum is definitely not like any other mother . i hope she's not my mother & i also hope im not her daughter . i dont even know why i am born by a person like her . okay im starting to get kidna dramatic here -___- but how i wished i dont even exist , especially with her as my mother . i dont know why she's my mother & i also dont know why she gave birth to me . id rather not exist in this world than to become her daughter . i think im biased ? im okay with my father & my stepfather , but im definitely not okay with my mum , that sickening slut =.= okay so im telling myself that im the daughter of the slut ? k whatever .

i dont ask anything from her . i think she get all she wanted , i think she's happy with her new husband , having everything she wants . i dont want anything from her . i dont think i need that kind of parental love or whatever shit . in my views , i think my mum failed to become a good mother . she totally failed it .

she's the reason why my father ends up like this . even my brother , i think she's the one who brought up many problems to my family . my father definitely made the wrong choice of marrying her . i know without her , i wouldnt be here or whatever . but like i said id rather not exist in this world than to become her mother fcuking daughter . if only my father didnt marry her , my father wouldnt end up like this . i feel like she's the root to all of our problems , this mother fucking slut =.=

i only want my own time from her , or is it freedom ? yeah i just want freedom . she expect me to stay at home every single day . going out or staying at home dont really make a difference , i wont see her =.= my mother always locks herself up in her room with her husband , i dont talk to her & she dont talk to me . but everytime she finds out i went out , she will ask me to be back home , by 9pm =.= 9PM , lol no life . 9PM so goddamn early lah you @$%@$ . but i just want freedom , nothing else okay . she's really getting into my way & it really frusts me . even good results wont bring me any freedom . she only wants me to stuck at home & stare at the goddamn walls

yet just now , she said vulgarities to me . LOL she said vulgar words to me . now , i dont even think she deserve any respect . what a way to lecture me . those vulgar words coming from my own mother really turns me off . so now the reason why i say vulgarities is because my own mother uses them & from there i was taught to use vulgarities from the examples ive heard

& yes i am ashamed to have a mother like her & i couldnt be bothered to try to be a good daughter to her . my brother has given up on her . my younger brother dont rely on my mum cos my grandparents is alrdy like my younger brother's parents . my siblings dont like my mum , especially my brother . i guess we siblings dislike this same person . i give up on my mum . i dont wanna look at her face