why this thing ?

felt like im losing all my friends , all the ones i know . i dunno why this sudden feeling . maybe i didn't treat them well or something ? & yeah , he's drifting away from me now & we're kinda silent . boy sucks . & i felt like there's many people who are hating me & im like a one-pathetic-retarded-kid . i dunno what's the fcuking reason but going on with my life seems to be the answer .


anyways , felt like im still in sec one this year . cousin said - cos you didn't change class & you know all your classmates =.= kinda true eh ? well , i should study hard this year man . eventhough math & science is like killing me & making me feel like wanna give up , i SHOULD PUSH myself , ouh fook . i don't think im ready for any study-ing time . & what's more ? mother tongue teacher is still that freaking fat-ass . i find my P.E teacher is sooo unfair . i got scolded for wearing black socks but some classmates were wearing bright coloured socks & they didn't get scolded . or issit bright coloured socks is allowed in school ? 0.0 ouh well well well , im just fated to go through this & i shall just leave everything to god almighty :( ouh another thing , Ms Tay didn't say anything about my eyebrow piercing & Mdm Aiman also didn't say anything 0.0 but Ms Lee scolded me =.= she said i talk rubbish cos i said - " i thought you cannot see , im wearing the transparent stick " , hoho , guess im a stupid dumb-ass :P


well FYI , i work just now . for just 1 day cos they need some people . from 9.30 to 12 & i got 30 bucks for changing the target paper 60 times for the shooter at National Shooting Center for 2 :1/2 hours :D gee , one day only =.= erms , thinking & thinking , i felt like working this year . well , im going to be 14 this year okay ! few moe days , haaaHa . but thinking again , im afraid i might not have enough time to enjoy , study & dance 0.0 if not i need to wait sucha long long time for my mum / dad to gimmi money man . i wanna work babe , part-time can eh . i want at least $180 a month ler . about 3-5 days a week ? ? but , work as what ? ! Mac ? KFC ? give out flyers ? ! durh , i shall ask around for that aite :D


one last thing , i think i've been making enemies blindly when im with emyth . okay , lemme explain this . you know i always go chingay & come back home from chingay with emyth . emyth ask this dude - " hey , why is your friend staring at me from just now uh ? he's k-wat ehk ? " & i go like WTF =.= so i think that dude told his friend & all the groupers seems to dislikes emyth & maybe me too =.= whoa fcuk man & that group always talks about him / us . yeah i know the problem here but why me , i think im so so so innocent here not knowing anything & they didn't like emyth & until they didn't like me . like i didn't know them , i didn't approach them before , im just minding my own business & this is what i freaking get ? whoa , this sucks man .