im what ?

i feel so different now . after aerna told me she likes this butch , 131234537846237846 things were going around my head . cos you know , i find butch are hell damn cute girls . i was like , " am i a lesbian ? bisexual like what aerna thinks of herself ? " yeah i know you will go " eeeeeeeeewwwwww yidah ! " but im being frank here please . but nonononono i never had a crush on a 100% girl . you know what i mean . cos maybe this thing explains it all why i keep turning down boys . yeah i liiiikkkkeeee boys but when it comes to getting into a relationship with a boy , i'll go like " aarrgghh , yes he's cute but nnnaaahhh , not my type " & hell lots more 141264236795 freaking excuses i gave to my friends not wanting to be in a BGR . rejecting guys over & over again . this whole thing is a damn sh!t thingy . i think this might be your worst ever nightmre knowing my secret . there's a more " TOP SECRET " about me which i wanna let it out but i will only let my closed ones know through this blog . im so damn ashamed to tell anyone face to face . not even my freaking close brother . maybe im just influenced by this guy who is close to me & a gay boy . but maybe not . maybe i don't wanna get into a BGR after my freaking ex dumped me like a sh!t , yeah like hell sh!t . thinks he owns all girls huh ? ! but can't really explains it all . there's another thing which troubled me & the thing i've done was such a sinful act . it was so , eeewww =.=

i really wanna let this thing out but i guess only the ones which i think can know about it will be invited to know thisssssssss thinggggggg . what ive told you now is just a lil bit about me . arggghhh i want mel's , aerna , fafa , adilah , naz & jing rong's blog email . i need hhhhheeeellllppppppp ! don't ever tell me that im a freaking lesbian or a bisex ! this is so so so nightmare