2007-201(?)

k sch's like totally shitty but also sometimes kinda better in certain areas . one thing i know now is i hate my bio teacher , i cannot get a single shit learned from my chemistry teacher = total fail for science . seriously i wanna drop science . plus i dont get it , why would i need to learn so many subjects when im just aiming for L1R4 . learn other subjects will just waste my time only . thinking of just 1 goddamn subject that i hate plus the teachers who makes it worse for me can really makes me mood go down , like really downnnn .

i seriously hate the feeling i get when i sensed the teachers are demoralising me . it just sucks big time . id rather have them not bothering about me than saying somethings which really freaking pisses me off . sometimes i do get the feeling like - "ouh im gonna make today really productive" & like really doing the best i could & then there would be just some fucking shit that happens & just totally bring me back to that i-dont-give-a-fuck-about-school attitude . i mean im really trying but i just hate it when shit happens , especially when teachers are the one who made that shit happen to me =.=

people always say sacrifice for just this year & something like - its the heart which really counts or wtv . but cmon for someone who stays at the east side like me to go all the way to the west side for school every single morning , you will get fucking tired of it . i can assure that you will eventually get tired of it , yea eventually . people talk like its so easy but they know nothing about it . for 2 years , i get sick of it , freaking tired of it . its not really easy , it really affects my mood a lot . i know i talk all these shit & should prolly just move the fuck on & deal with it . yeah im just doing it for the sake of doing it but sometimes it just really get effed up & just wanna babble about it =.=

i feel like giving up my O's . i feel like i couldnt think anymore for myself or something . its like totally blank & idk what to do , what's really effective for me . dont know why im being in such a situation & why im like the unfortunate one to go through all these stupid shitsxz but still important for my future . i mean O's is already one hell of a task & yet i have some other issues which kinda acts like a barrier towards me from getting a good solid grade .

nevertheless , my princess keeps me up .
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee princess