2007-201(?)

i just cannot stop talking about school . i cant stop talking about how dreadful school is but at the same time i wanna do well in school . i know something is just wrong with my thinking or wtv , like i completely know how freaking important O level is but im just not doing anything to reach my goals . even right now im wasting my time typing this out but i just wanna say it , idk why . i think im just not awake . i totally need someone or something to knock me hard in the head & just mfkg shout at me that i should start a REAL REVISION/STUDY . just 60 days , why cant i just freaking study like mad & for once clear this shit & do well . guess im really slacking & taking things too easily . but really , physically right now im not interested in this =.= omg FML pls me i wanna study & do well :(

but had a really great talk with friends just now . in a way i get to say how i really feel & stuff . they made me feel kinda left behind or smth like that in my studies , which really makes me feel i need to do something to be in the same pace with them , which is good in a way for me . yknow it sucks to know you're not doing as good as your friends & i hope by this i just start cracking up & yeaaaa . ouh & thanks asyikin for doing a new target setting for me . i think its really achievable yknow if i really study hard . k lah of cos lah if study hard may get good grades but really seeing a few of my subject's result i think if i push myself i may get what i want .

i guess my first step to get what i want is to NOT DREAD SCHOOL & prolly love it ? lol but yeah once i think negatively about something , the outcome of it wont be that good :/ so must have positive thinking right right right blogger

first thing first , complete my art 'satisfyingly' . art is like the only subject left which i think i may score higher & i should really put that freaking 110% effort & get at least B3 , k i aim for A2 at first but then i realise its freaking hard =.= lol skali art result i get lesser eh , hah pathetic cry mother cry father . && hope the malay paper i retaking again would be a lot more easier or something .

ouh wow forever talking about studies & doing well but forever lazy =.=