2007-201(?)

i want to forget about him , completely , completely forget about him . he's the only guy out of so many guys which i knew last time that really got me so goddamn fcuking crazy over him . held this on for so long , nearly 2 yearsxzc . i swear no one ever did this to me & i cant believe im like this towards a person , this is so [insert word] .

i remembered when i get to get in touch with him again for a short time last year which is after we drift apart for nearly a year . i felt like i was the happiest kid in this world having to get in touch back with the person i freakin' miss so much & hoping to get in touch back . i kept that few messages in a folder in my phone i wish that same text will be sent again to me , LOLX . but nah , i want him out of my mind . i did it okay , i did try to just FORGET everything about him but i dont know why i suddenly think about him moments ago . so im doing this last post of him hoping i will be over him completely after this .

i look back & guess everything happens for a reason , i mean everything really did happen for a fcuking reason . GOD IS TOTALLY GREAT <3 also , i realised i did change a lot , seriously A LOT . whoa sec 1 , tsk cheeky sia me , but i swear when i was 13 , i had the best year of my whole fcuking life . i live my life to the fullest , do many stupid things , had quite a lot of contacts & stuffs . sec 2 , beginning to 'rilek' alrdy . lost many many friends , i changed my number & didnt tell them & i dont know what happens till i changed to a quiet person , like totally quiet 0.0 & still like this till now . i totally want my oldself back , my 13-year-old life back . thats why i wanna be 13 forever & im trying to do back all the stuffs i did back then , just to feel 13 again . but im never satisfied with my current self .

i hope i change again , i would like to be my oldself back , i mean i want .
okay this exact same post is also up in my tumblr . just wanna have the same post , only for this post . i think im gonna go back to blogger again . tumblr just to post some quotes & pics , blogger mainly to express my feelings/words out ?

lastly , im not prepared for EOY . i just want to get over with those papers , so yeah whatever