"confession"

poured out everything that is on my mind to JR . but i feel that there is more to it , too much till i didn't know which to say & where to start . what i really & truly need was kinda hard , JR says its so impossible . maybe it's possible but low chances ? if i were to get that kind of person which i wanted , it would be my best gift ever . zzz ive been blogging daily nowadays eventhough exams is around the corner . in fact , it's this thursday =.= guess i must not touch the laptop till end of this week . i need to memorise the format for letter writing for both English & Malay :D but before that , let me just make some "speech" =.= . . .


to lyn okay . err so yeah . didnt realise that i treat you coldly . im saying it to you here cos if i were to text you , i think it's too long . if talk on phone , im afraid i might say out the wrong things & sound harsh . furthermore , you said you were drunk =.= but whatever , like i said it's just about me , my moodswings & things which i couldnt control myself . maybe you still havent know me really well yet , i always get this kind of moodswings , always . cos you keep on msging me things which i think i dont need to reply cos it's too random & you know when you're having bad mood then some people just annoyed you keep on msging you random things , you might feel really annoyed right ? you said you would give me some time alone but then you still msg me =.= && i think your "cousin" who have been msging me all this while is not your "cousin" yeah that cousin thingy also makes me annoyed cos i keep thinking that it was just you who try to talk to me cos i didnt reply to your msgs , but i dont know if it's really your cousin . uhh i did say that i am having moodswings & bad mood at my blog & i need some time alone . maybe you are just over-friendly till i get annoyed ? but dont think wrongly kay , i dont hate you or whatever , i just need some time for myself . i dont wanna sound really harsh on you but im really really really trying my best to be polite here . cos i think if i were to just ignore you , you might think im treating you coldly . if i just say im irritated by you , im afraid im so harsh on you . but i think i just need to say it out(which i did =.=) at here & at the same time say that i dont mean to be harsh on you but i need to be honest cos i dont want you to think that im treating you coldly . so yeah , just give me some time & honestly i think we cant communicate . what's the point of just communicating via sms & msn ? =.= kkkkkk im sorry . REALLY SORRY . maybe you dont really understand me & dont know what kind of person i am =.= so yeah , dont think im hating you okay , i just need to let go some of my feelings .

blogger is like my best friend , i pour everything out here & feel satisfied , DURH =.= im putting my tagboard back . i hope there's somebody who would tag me . i only get tag-ed like once every 2 weeks ? pathetic tagboard . i know lah , this blog is like only between me myself & my own blog , nobody else is here ; hahahaha lame .