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it seems to be getting more complicated .
i dont want both him & her to drag this
matter , i dont wanna continue this
i thought things were getting better last
few months . then she decided to take
this action which then lead me , my brother
& herself into this situation .
i seriously feel she's like a goddamn b!tch .

been nearly 3 years & this matter is
still dragging & finding the way out .
i dont want to lose him .
i even told myself that when i already grew up ,
i wanna take care of him :X hehe talk so much eh yidah .
i feel & thinks she's the cause of this matter .
i dont know if i really care towards this matter .
even if i did , i dont think i can do much .
it's just up to both of them .
she wanna break us apart while he dont seem
to care cos he's too ego-ist & dont want to
let out his feelings .
i find him stubborn , stubborn like me .

now she has a new person .
i dont seem to be quite used to what this
person's lifestyle is .
bet my freedom will be taken away .
our situation is complicated & we are
just heading to nowhere . we are just
blindly moving on with nothing in
our minds . bet you cant really
understand what im trying to say .
let's just hope it turns well & that im able
to cope with it . & i definitely treasure
each & one of them , so much .
im so sorry to call her a b!tch in this
holy month but i cant seem to have any better
word to describe her .

if only you were in my shoes ,
you would know how embarassed i am
for not being responsible , not even a bit .
my life is more complicated than you can
ever imagine till my friend said my situation
is goddamn fcuking complicated & can
turn into a drama , haha :P
maybe this is just an obstacle which i have to go through ?
been 3 years , lol when is it gonna end ?