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" Cheer up k, all those who deserve to be in the team has done well, has tried their best and has got a somewhat good result,silver. Unlike Strawberry, whom most of usdon't think she deserve to be in the team really deserve to be kicked out. Nevertheless,you still have a second syf coming, and you girls will do us proud the nest time round right? Cheer up yidah, you've really did well:D love you ! " that was what Brenda messaged me after knowing our result . the result turned out to be what i expected , but what i know is that the team isn't satisfied with our performance . we still didn't dance as a team . we're like dancing on our own . & i didn't expect to cry this much . i cry not because of the result . i cry because seeing the teachers & seniors disappointed in this year's team which expect a lot from us but we didn't managed to get to their standard . teachers in charge expected a BRONZE , durh =.= but i think the team knew their standard well & each of us know that we have more to learn . i can't reveal the result here but sooner or later , all of you will know . we don't want Strawberry to know the result as she did not turn up for the meeting just now . how can she leave us just like that ? all of the team members were there except for her . she's the most not deserved to be in the team & yet she gave us this kind of attitude . choosing her to be in the SYF was a huge mistake .

can't deny it , all of us , even the teachers think she don't deserve to be in the team . but that doesn't matter now . starting right at this moment , the teachers are gonna figure out how the dance club members could bond together & know each other as during the meeting just now , each & everyone of the members must say something about how they feel towards the dance & some opinions . quite a few told that we're not dancing as a team & we don't know each other . i said that when we dance , we're dancing with strangers . no chemistry were there between us . in my opinion , team spirit & chemistry in every group plays a big part . if you were to dance / play by yourself , not together as a team , things don't turn out good & audience won't have feelings towards what you're doing . well , you get what i mean ? haha . but i cried alot when Mdm Zan said to me & amirah that we dance very well ( thank you thank you ! ) & we're the ones who will be leading the next 2 year's dancers . i treat myself Chocolate oreo for doing my best for the dance . by the time it is 2011 , i would be 16 , Sec 4 & will be taking my O levels . now that was what im not looking forward to . i can't wait for SYF 2011 but i CAN wait for O levels . few months after SYF , then it would be O levels . aaarrrgggghhhh im not ready XD but i know i would work the hardest for SYF 2011 for it is my last chance to redeem back the GOLD that ZhengHua has got for 2003 & 2005 . the alumni really depend on us to redeem back the GOLD that they have been hoping for & they didn't managed to get it . SYF really means alot to me now . 2 years may seem long but it would just arrived in a blink of an eye . wonder if it is the correct phrase man :P next year would be Danceworks . Danceworks seems to be more enjoying but SYF is more serious . i don't think we will set high goals for this competition . it seems so impossible . some particular schools dance hip-hop really well . but now , all we need to do is to get to know each other better , communicate with each other & bond together . ouh yeah , 22nd May there will be performance by us & other 6 schools ( i think ) . do come down to watch us perform :D

last thing , i am seriously lazy to do school work nowadays . i feel like giving up maths . it's killing me . Science is even driving me to my grave . i hate Science for this term . this term only :P especially finding 5 articles on environment . ouh hello ! do you know that the topics in newspapers are all about economic crisis ? ! & yet , they don't let us find articles through internet , only from newspapers , magazines . but the most subject which i hate is ART . fcuk this teacher . she thinks we don't have any homeworks everyday & make us do at least 4 development of ideas in a day . OHMYGOD ! teacher , do you know that we got at least 2 homeworks everyday & most of us goes home ard 5/6pm & we got not enough time to do 4 freaking developments of ideas in urm , 6 hours ! sometimes , even we have complete it with our blood & sweat , you commented that it is not nice , not relevant & some changes need to be done & ask us to re-do it back ! eh please lah , i don't think half a day is enough for us to inspire good-good ideas & yet we need to do 4 & all must be different . maybe to some of you is not a problem . but to me , it is a big problem . i seriously hate ART alot . in fact , i don't think it is ART , it is my teacher . i know she is good in arts but try to understand the students which have no passion for art at all & gave us more time as we are not as free as what you think ! i don't care , i don't have anything that inspires me now & im not gonna complete my art by tomoro . blogging is much more fun than doing art . i think she expects a lot from us but don't push us over the limit man . fook .