dance life do sucks

urgh zzzzzzz been quite a long time since i update =.= won't be always updating blog these days . no lappy at home & im too busy training for performance on 6 dec . & what's more ? yes performance is on 6 dec but rehersal ( not sure of spelling 0.0 ) is on 30 nov . wtf , 9 more days & we havent even edit the songs . but we have figured out the steps aite ! i wonder if i can make it to the rehersal . i mean 30 nov is my cousin's wedding & my aunts , uncles & other cousins will be expecting me to be there helping them out , you know kendarat cos im sooooo freaking close with them . yet im having my rehersal on the same day . i think being a dancer needs a lot of sacrifices =.= your family your friends your studies your boy / girl & yourself . i wonder how those dancers out there maintain their time . being a dancer may sucks but it may be good at the same time . edwin really wishes our group could stay long & of cos , i want it too . i really don't know wether i should help out at my cousin's wedding or just go for the rehersal . i know dance mates really wants full attendance but i don't wanna disappoint my family . eeeeww fcuk . dance life do sucks , abit =.= & i know being a dancer is really really effing hard for the second time im saying this ! im only a beginner yet im alrdy so stressed . training for the whole day from 12noon - 9/10pm & didn't even get to meet sani for a long time . & holllyyy sh!t my dance mates is sooo over confident that they could win 1st prize =.= well , whatever happens , im not gonna care bout it :/ & i think im not ready for school :( i know it's 1 month away but , im just not ready . 1 month seems a short time to relax for me . but of cos 1 month of school is sooooo long =.= haaaha . okeh okeh , that'll be it . i skipped training for today , tmr & sat ; with an excuse =.= guess i'll need to train hard then .